Writing is a state of being, often times overshadowing the real world, and can be exhausting. To write well, you can't detach your emotions from characters, and jeez, I put my characters through a lot sometimes. I need to take breaks, curl up, and shut down at times just to finish a story.
I'm finding that particularly true with Krystal in The Girl in the Mirror. Now, I knew she'd have issues. How could she not? She's Chrissie and Alan's daughter. But I didn't expect her story to unfolded as it did or how many complex threads are in her. How interrelated who she is with how she is and what becomes of her.
My newest fictional daughter I'm raising is putting me through quite a bit of grief. I often don't want to do what I'm doing to my poor heroines, but I've got to let them make their own mistakes and grow from them. I write not just to tell a story, but to share and empower women, to touch on issues most writers won't write about, hopefully in a way that conveys we're all women and whatever our background we are connected by the issues of being women. That we heal and succeed through love and tolerance and perseverance. That no matter the hurts we know, the errors we make, the power to succeed rests inside us all...and it doesn't hurt to throw in the love of a good man. I'm glad a nice man to love Krystal came to life in the telling of her story. She definitely needs a good guy and I really like Jacob Merrick my new hero.
But remember, it's a story by me, full of twists and turns into the unexpected, and I think I may shock some of my readers that this is how Krystal's story goes since she's always been the perky, brainy, sunny girl in the other books. She grew up, dears. Surprising us all I think. And I'm pretty sure I'm going to hear that "you made me throw my kindle, Susan" comment.
I can only tell her story how Krystal tells it to me.
Hoping to write some words today.
I am so ready to release The Girl in the Mirror.
As ever I wish you peace.