I debated whether to release my novella yesterday. I have someone looking at my inventory of work and they won't represent self-published work. But I wrote Rewind for my daughter for her birthday. Success for me yesterday was getting that loaded on Amazon before the 6th, so I did it.
I want to leave my kids something more than money(btw don't count on there being any money because we're spending it). I want to leave them me. Each book is written with a particular girl in mind, inside the story there is some message or secret of me, and the message isn't necessarily for the girl I dedicate the book to. I can't make it that easy for them.
I started all this when the girls were little ones. In fact, all 26 books are like a giant puzzle, a coded message from mom to my bugs. Ironically, I think it's my son-in-law who will decode first, probably because he reads the work and he's wicked smart. My girls don't read romance novels, but maybe someday they will and I like the thought that they might see me pressed in the pages, that they might see them, that they might find the coded message left from me to them and realize, God, we never escape that woman trying to manage our lives! :-)
I have this dream that someday when I'm floating on the clouds, or wherever we go, that one of my girls might have book in hand and I hear something like: I forgot how complex and intense Mom was OR I forgot how wicked funny she was OR that Facebook quiz was so wrong Mom is more than 50% crazy.
It's just a dream, a silly fantasy that may or may not ever be, but it is how I define success in this.