I live in dread of instantly shrinking, diminishing back in time to that girl at the HS dance who never got asked to dance. Sitting at a table with no one visiting me. But that's OK. For me the important thing is somehow a 1/2 century into my life, I've gotten up enough nerve not to hide and to attend these events. Releasing my books is a journey about so many other things than being a writer for me. It has been a very unrelenting teacher in learning how to no longer be afraid.
I wish you Peace.